Wednesday, November 27, 2013


Hey blog,

I seriously suck so bad at writing in this blog, I have two others that I rock at writing in, but they're private. I guess I just write my little heart out in my other ones so I tend to neglect writing in this beaut.  

Can I even call this blog a beaut? Let's be honest, this blog is a random, substance-lacking mess.

Haha well, I've been in bed all day today sick, and you know what that means?  

If you said "Over thinking, watching vimeo, music hunting and dreaming of how I would love to live my life." YOU ARE CORRECT.

So here's what I've gotten out of todays thoughts.

-For a while now, I've wanted to find a big van, pile a bunch of people I can vibe with into it, road trip it to some coast, camp on the beaches, use the van as our make-shift hotel, surf, meet and hear different peoples stories, and just have the raddest time of our lives slumming around, exploring.  I want to make crazy memories.  I've decided I WILL make it happen, just watch. #SeniorTrip2k14?

-I want to go camping.

-I really don't enjoy school.  I hate the system really.  It tests our memory, not our knowledge.  I don't learn, I memorize. How I've been taught for the past 6 years of my life is getting handed a book and told to fill in the blanks on papers, or take notes for a test coming up that I will completely forget in a couple of years, months, maybe even days after I turn in my paper. Like, come on. 
 Teach me by experience, get me involved, teach me something I will actually use in my life!  I wish we had a wider range of classes available in high school.  I guess thats one reason I'm excited for college.  I can choose and major in things that actually apply to me, my talents and what I want to do in life.  I'm sure my major will change plenty of times while I'm in college, but I know I won't be wasting my time on struggling with things I don't enjoy learning about.

-Bad things happen in life, so don't dwell on it.  Things happen for a reason. Learn from it and become stronger.  Life goes on. Go with the flow.

-Social media is great.  But at the same time so terrible.  Lately, I've been feeling the terrible part of it.
Teenagers are dumb, we're all competing with each other.  Trying to impress, seem like we have cool, exciting lives.  Comparing ourselves to each other. "She's so much prettier than me" "Boys love her" "They are so much funnier than me" "They just have it so much better than me"  uuuuugh.  It's seriously evil, it brings people down like crazy.  And people say things they would never say in person on it.  It seriously changes people.  I've been comparing myself to other people like crazy, so that's why I'm disappearing for a while.  I gotta focus on myself, not being a people pleaser.  I didn't used to be like this.  I used to not care at all, and I want to go back to not giving a rats bum about how other people think of me.  I just want to like myself, thats all that matters to me.  
 Another thing is that it's so terribly addicting.  I'm always on my phone, checking for notifications, seeing what other people are doing.  I gotta put my phone down and focus on what really matters, real life and it's relationships with people.  Anyone can be cool on social media if they really want to, but can be totally different in real life.  It's crazy to me how people talk to me and act as though they're my best friend on twitter or insta but won't even look at me in real life to say hey to me in the hall.  Like alright then?  
 I wish I lived in a previous generation that was simpler, and more real with each other.  That would be so sick.

Anyway enough for my stupid thoughts.

Here's some videos I found,

Some of the videos are lengthy, but totally worth your time.  Well, if you're into the things I am I guess.

Now for my latest playlist,

'Matangi' by M.I.A
'Feather' by Little Dragon
'Oblivion' by Grimes
'Belongings' by Bear Hands
'What a Drag' by Bear Hands
'Benzolovers' by Liar
'Past Lives' by Diiv
'How long have you known' by Diiv
'This day is made' by The Hundred in The Hands
'Pulse' by Young Wonder
'This is all we've got' by Cut Copy
'Can we go inside now' by Blood Orange
'Always Forever' by Cults
'Ice on the windowsill' by Teen Daze
'Humble Bones' by Labyrinth Ear
'Navy Light' by Labyrinth Ear
'Black out days' by Phantogram

It's a little mix of old and new stuff.

Sunday, June 23, 2013

It's Summer TwoK13

Hey darlins.  So. It's summer. Heres the DL on me.

I'm in summer school.

I'm feeling so great about everything going on right now in my life.

I've made new friends,  I've actually known them for a while, but we haven't become close and started hanging out until recently.  I love these boys so much. These boys are in my ward, and also older than I am, which means they are leaving on their missions soon.  It's so bitter sweet.  I look up to them so much, and I'm so so glad we're close now, but it sucks to know that they are leaving soon right as we are becoming friends. But I'm so proud of them and I know they will do such amazing things while they are gone!

I got a J O B, at Magelbys Fresh in provo. To be honest, I hated it at first. I hate bussing tables, and touching other peoples already eaten food, but I'm warming up to it.  It's got me working hard, and i'm really actually quite proud of myself for doing this.  And I'm learning new things so I'm not bussing as much! So, we will just see how my feelings are after about another month or so, I'm sure I will grow fonder of it.

Having a job means M O N E Y, I've gotten new clothes, bought new songs, had more gas in my car so I can go longer distances! My job is definitely paying off.

Speaking of new clothes, 


Lets just say I blew pretty much my whole pay check on clothes the DAY  I  GOT  PAID... I'm so stupid.
Freaking forever 21, Pacsun, and Cotton On make me poor...

Anyway, now for your dose of Stephs playlist for the month...
(This playlist has more of my summer time vibe...)

Tuesday, May 7, 2013


   You know when you're so emotionally sick, it turns to physical sickness?

Yeah well I think that's what I have.

An achey head from too many racing thoughts.
A body that feels as though its gotten hit by a bus because the only thing you've done all month is lay in bed.
A throat that's on fire from that tightness you feel from holding back tears all the time.

Maybe I'm the only one who this happens to, I dunno. All I know is I feel like death.

I'm not sad anymore, I'm actually quite happy and content with life right now, it's just the physicality catching up with me from these last months of struggling.

School? Yeah, I couldn't handle it.
I just wrapped myself in a Stephanie blanket burrito, sat outside listening to the thunder and rain drops, and drink tea.

So I had plans to preform at an open mic night tonight with my good friend Aaron Kennedy,

So much for that...

I sound so terrible right now, It's such a struggle to squeeze the notes through my vocal chords.

I was so freaking pumped and ready to finally sing infront of people!

Yesterday, Aaron was the first person ever outside of my family to really actually hear me sing.

I was, and still am SO ready and feeling confident to sing for other people now!

But no. My body hates me.

Thank you so much for the terrible timing immune system.

Monday, April 1, 2013


Ok, I TOTALLY forgot to post the video I made while I was in california.  A lot of my friends are living their lovely spring break in cali right now, and seeing all of their pictures reminds me of when I was down there!  So here you go! My documentation of our trip a couple weeks ago!

Check it out here if you're on an iphone!

Saturday, March 23, 2013

Just A Little Lovely Vid

Happy saturday everyone!

Monday, March 18, 2013


Hello lovelies, 
I decided to start my blog out fresh.  I didn't like how it was, so I'm sorry for deleting everything! But there is so much better in store for this blog of mine!

Ok... Starting off the new blog, I'm going to talk about music.

I'm going to straight up say music is my life. One of the first things I ask someone when I'm first getting to know them, is what kind of music they listen to.
I'm a strong believer in what kind of music you listen to, reflects your personality.  So honestly, if I know what kind of music you like, I don't have any need to know anything else about you.  
I have a pretty chill, unique music taste, and if you're a boy who has the same taste as me... Feel free to tell me, so I can fall in love with you.  REALLY, nothing makes me giddier!

So let me share with you some of my collection...
(They're all beauties, so just do yourself a favor and listen to them all)

"Feather stone" by The Paper Kites

"Sleeping Sickness" by City and Colour

"Montana" by Youth Lagoon

"I Don't Know How to Love" by The Drums

"My Number" by Foals

"Pull My Heart Away" by Jack Penate

"Little Bit" by Lykke Li

"Civilian" by Wye Oak

"Vanished" by Crystal Castles

"Sweater Weather" by The Neighbourhood

"Shake Me Down" by Cage The Elephant